I’m tired of being sad.
I’m tired of being mad.

I get it.
The world sucks.

All the systems in place have failed us. Left America and the rest of the world in a confused state of disarray.

What to do about it now?
Continue being sad and mad and confused, and talking about it… it is not satiating me any longer.

Listening to others complain and victimize themselves.
I’m tired of it.

But what is the right action to take?

Deep self-reflection. The deepest I can go.

During these Coronavirus times, the stark contrast that is income equality is becoming grossly apparent.

I personally do not believe money reflects true value.

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I feel a strong obligation to write about it because I believe my perspective can bridge those who are in upper to higher class (as categorized from a money perspective) plus those who are in the lower-income brackets.

When I chat with certain friends who have stable jobs in the technology sector in San Francisco or…

These are my personal thoughts on Coronavirus from a health-minded perspective. This is my subjective opinion and my raw, real thoughts.

I am a certified massage therapist and Ayurveda student. I focus greatly on food and nutrition and building immunity from the inside out. I pretty much spend all of my time thinking, learning, and implementing the ways of being in order to be my healthiest and highest vibration self. And I made it my job to help others to unlock the same state within themselves.

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I am wondering about the impact that globalized media is having on escalating fears…

Dear Chinese ancestors,
Thank you.

I am where I am because of what you did. There is no possible other way. I have been able to land in this place in time and space thanks to your hard work, to uplift all the generations to come. The pursuit of a better life for future generations has paid off.

I am the future generation with a truly better life.

I have the freedom to do whatever I want. I have the awareness to break out of societal molds. I have been set up for success by you.

What I wish for…

I wouldn’t have it any other way, not that I could change things :)

They are so supportive and so generous, wanting to give me everything they never had. Wanting the best life for me and my sister.

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Ultimately, there is nothing else like family. Family love and support is so embedded in Chinese culture. America is the land of the independent. To even arrive and make it here, they had to stray away from Chinese culture some. Many people in China live with their parents until they get married, and even after, their parents play a big role in…

By no longer listening to other people and trusting myself.

It takes a while to get to this point, I definitely acknowledge this. I have put my body through some STUFF. Physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual pain. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll make it.

I always do. My body always survives. It always comes back on top. It teaches me what I need and speaks up in the form of physical or emotional pain for me to process and work through.

I have healed a lot of my own injuries and pain by being diligent with natural remedies plus addressing…

A happy poop is a sign of a well-functioning and well-metabolizing digestive system.
Plus, the word poop itself is a palindrome and that’s just darn-right fun.

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What goes in must come out

Why are we scared of talking about farting, pooping, burping, and more?

Why is it something that is rude, gross, and that we need to apologize for?

If anything, these are key information that you should be paying attention to.

These are clues of your body talking to you.
It’s telling of how your precious body is reacting to what you’re putting into it.

Everything is fine and dandy and okay.
More than okay. Truthfully, things are quite splendiferous.

I am the happiest I’ve ever been.
I have also felt the saddest I’ve ever felt. The most pain I’ve ever felt. The most healing I’ve ever tapped into.

Stephanie Zhu. Healer. Writer. The mystic dreamer.

Spiritual guide.
Health warrior.

I am Steph,
the mystic dreamer.

The Backstory

1 year ago, I worked in an office at a 9–5 job in tech.

I worked as a technical marketing manager at Intel, promoting and selling FPGAs (field-programmable gate arrays, a compact reprogrammable little piece of hardware).

It was a really great experience.


What’s SUP? Single-use products.

When I walk into a grocery store, my mind converts all the packaged goods in the aisle to empty containers. And then I get overwhelmed.

The reality of where our trash goes.

Instead, let’s take another approach.

Let me paint a picture of an idyllic community harmoniously engaging with Mother Nature and the organic interactions that arise as a result.

A woman leaves her house with a breadbasket and bikes to the local bakery.

She engages in friendly conversation with the baker, asking about the specials of the day and if they have any of those sweet delicious mini chocolate croissants left. The baker says yes, and throws…

One of my forms of self-care is writing a love letter to myself.

My dearest Steph,
You are magnificent.
You are lovely and you shine so bright.

I see how you work so hard and diligently all the time, even if you don’t always see it yourself. I’m here to remind you to take a step out of that one moment, that one instance, turn off being present for a hot sec. Take a step back and see the bigger picture.

Your progress and turnover in 1 year is incredible. You quit the job that drained you of passion and…

Stephanie Zhu

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